Indiana's Angel,,♥

I’m sure if you’ve read my blog you know that i lost a baby this year. But i’ve never really come out with the whole story„so here it is.
I was 10 weeks, this picture was taken at Christmas, about 2 weeks before i found out i was pregnant. And that, that is Heath. We’ve been together since i was 16, he was my brothers best friend, he’s always been around but until i was 16 he was just another guy. After that we were inseparable. We fought and pushed eachothers buttons, but i loved that boy like i had never loved anyone before. My senior year we already had plans on getting married, starting a family, and then taking over the family farm. I had already gotten my ring for Christmas„picture perfect right? 
Everything was„until a few days after I turned 18. I started spotting, my doctor said it was no big deal unless it got worse. It did. I knew something was wrong so i went in with Heath,my mom, and his mom for an ultra sound. There was no heart beat, i knew then that our baby was gone. I was scheduled for a DNC the next morning. I spend the rest of that day crying into Heath. 
That night my body went into labor trying to get rid of the baby itself. I went to the hospital and they sent me home. I lost the baby no more than 10 minutes after i got home. Losing a baby is one thing, but holding your dead baby in your hand is another.
I had surgery the next day, and Heath was wonderful. Until about a day after that. We fell apart after that, I told him i didn’t know what i wanted any more and he took that as I didn’t know if i loved him. He was so wrong. I still love him more than anyone.

Between then and now, we’ve said horrible things to each other. He moved to Tennessee in late August„ and we dated other people. But what’s meant to be will always find it’s way„and in November we started talking again. And we decided that we need to take us to the next level. And i will shortly be moving in with him. 

Starting over„starting our own life together♥